"I wrote "I do and I will" when I was 17 or 18 years old after the structure and overall sound of the song had come to me in a dream. The music in the dream seemed to be somewhat of an embodiment of my emotional state at that point (just as good music should be): vulnerable, a bit cocky and over-ambitious, not yet sure what I wanted from life and from people (hey, I was a teenager after all!). Most of what people now regard as "my style" first appeared in dreams or "sound images" in my head and, being self-thaught, I«ve spent years to aquire the necessary skills to make those "visions" into actual music. This specific song became sort of a blueprint for what "Fountainhead" is about: Lots of fretless guitars (both lead and rhythm), extended song structures, orchestral sections very much influenced by the works of Stravinsky or Reich, mixing "live"-drums with treated sounds, loops and "guitar-percussion" (percussive sounds played on the guitar in various ways) and so forth.
I knew that if I could imagine myself doing it, I«d be able to eventually make that sort of music, hence the title "I do and I will", a phrase that comes from the novel "Fountainhead" by Ayn Rand. In the book, it«s actually the name of a self-made millionaires yacht, but for me it sense as kind of a "mission-statement", because everyone who I would tell what exactly I was planning to do musically laughed at the idea that I would ever make the music I described. Well, to make a long story short: I did.
So from all of my songs it«s probably the one where the listener can get the most insight into "what makes me tick" as a musician and a human being."
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